In mid-October Ruth Lindberg, one of GFC’s Global Partners, was admitted to the hospital for abdominal pain, and was found to have cancer. Ruth and Doug are both young physicians with two small children. They invested the past four years serving in a remote mission hospital in western Nepal with plans to return. Now, their future is uncertain. Few exemplify one of Grace’s core values – Struggling Well – more than Doug and Ruth. Transparency and faith flow from their postings on the CaringBridge site. Here is the closing to Ruth’s posting on November 14, 2013.
For some reason, a verse from the Bible that has come up in my mind several times over the course of this past month is Exodus 33:18, where Moses is talking to God and then all of the sudden says to God, "Show me your glory." The boldness of his request has always struck me. I mean, this is God he is talking to. Some translations throw in a "please" or "I beseech You", but the most literal translations don't have that in there. So as I sat and cried and pleaded with God to please heal me, this verse came to my mind. "Now show me your glory."
Also for some reason, during these times of prayer and pondering over verses that come to my mind when I pray, I have found great comfort in the sermons of Charles Spurgeon, whose works I had never read much before I was sick. So after I read the chapter in my Bible, I Googled the verse plus "Spurgeon" and found a sermon on it. He pointed out that when Moses asked this, the attribute of himself that God decided to show Moses was his goodness. "'I will make all my goodness pass before thee.' Ah! the goodness of God is God's glory. God's greatest glory is that he is good. The brightest gem in the crown of God is his goodness." Oh, how I needed to remember that. How I needed to be reminded of the goodness of God in His creation, His goodness to mankind, His goodness demonstrated on the cross of Calvary, His goodness to me throughout my life.
As I cried and pondered this, I pulled a ring out of my pocket that a friend has let me borrow for this time, a band that says "BELOVED" on it, and remembered. You are so, so good, God, and I am Your beloved. And I don't know what is going to happen, but I know those two things. Once again I climbed up into Jesus's lap like a little child and let my good Savior whisper, "I love you, Ruth," into my ear.
Our church in Milwaukee has started a sermon series on Joseph. A friend reminded me on Facebook that they put the sermons online a couple days afterwards, so I watched it a couple days ago. Oh, how I needed a reminder that when everything seems to be falling apart and nothing seems to make sense, that God is in control and never fails. That I can trust Him and His plan even in this dark, horrible pit called cancer. That He is with me.
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Posted on Thu, November 14, 2013
by Ruth Lindberg